Friday, October 25, 2013

.the night that broke the mommy's back.

Captain saved the day, or rather the night, last night as he took over all wakings except those requiring what only I can provide. The night before had been a rough one and I didn't even have fumes to run on. Looking back on it though, it struck me that it hadn't been any worse than several other nights that we had experienced. I did get a few two-hour stretches of somewhat-sleep here and there. Why was I completely drained?

I then realized that the old, over-used adage of "the straw that broke the camel's back" was probably over-used because of how true it really is. Except in this case it wasn't a straw, it was one more night of little sleep. But then, *poof*, that was it. It was all I had in me and I crashed.

**Lightbulb! The camel saying is probably what spawned the phrase "this is the last straw"! Seriously, I never put that together before. Wow, what three consecutive hours of sleep can do for the brain!**

Wee Bud is presently sitting next to me, snuggled in her carrier and dressed warmly in anticipation of a walk. She's fallen asleep with a smile on her face and now I must debate whether I, too, snuggle in for a nap or go for a walk as I had planned. Ack, decisions.

She just fell asleep so I have an hour to two hours. I can walk a mile in 20 minutes. Do I risk it and plan to take a 40 minute nap when I get back? Yes. Because exercise is important. But more important is that this is my favorite season of the year to be outdoors. The season where I feel most alive and most like myself. And honestly, that's what I need to feel right now. Alive. Myself.

Three cheers for Captain and for beautiful Autumn weather! Now where'd I put my shoes...


P.S. I am currently the proud owner of four ounces of pumped milk. I am ecstatic.


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